Guru Maharaj Ji (aka Prem Rawat) San Francisco 1981-06-07

His speeches were not written or prepared but they are certainly not unrehearsed. The speeches preceding his current one are the rehearsals and his speeches following evolve gradually using the same store of tales, premie gossip, clichés, life events, recent tv shows, stock phrases and buzzwords. He invariably garbles his first attempts at new "insights" and and it is these sections that were edited or removed when his speeches were published. His published speeches have all been edited and give a false picture, His thinking is much more disorderd than they show. My transcripts are word for word and give a more realistic picture of his thinking.

I hadn't hear any Guru Maharaj Ji satsang for over 20 years when I listened to this 1981 speech. What really struck me was how the laughter from the premies was so much louder and more exuberant. Much of it was unwarranted.

He speaks of love and courtship, he's learnt it all from cartoons and TV sitcoms, he's never been part of a culture, he's never lived a normal life apart from his early childhood. And how normal is it to grow up surrounded by worshippers of your father who is the Divine Perfect Master of an Indian cult and then be sent to a Catholic school. He left school at 13, he's never read a book, he's always lived in a bubble, surrounded by those who want to be near him, who fight to be near him, who bizare though it seems to outsiders, worship him. Early on he has educated himself from cartoons and tv sitcoms and movies.

Guru Maharaj Ji (aka Prem Rawat) San Francisco 1981-06-07

We've all come together here to try to understand something, to try to listen. There's so much to be said, there's so much to be heard, there's so much to be understood in this world, there's so many philosophies on one hand, and to me it's like a hundred stories change one practical thing. If in reality, the ocean is this beautiful blue color, and everybody has this theory that it's really pink, and we go around in our, heads day and night, trying to think that it's really pink, and when that one reality is understood, when that one reality comes into that sight, comes into our view, the necessity for hundreds and hundreds of theories go away, like Newton, he came up with his theory, and Albert Einstein, he came up with his theory and because Newton had already created a theory, nobody wanted to really listen to Albert's theory. Finally, I'm sure with a lot of pull and push and a lot of talk and a lot of convincing, he convinced everybody that it's really a little bit different than what Newton had taught, and he put out his theory. And now that man has had that chance to go into space and try some of those theories, they've even found out that, in reality, it's even slightly different than what Albert Einstein thought it was gonna be. And this is the way we live. We live in all these theories. We live in all these ideas that perhaps everybody is really happy, or everybody is really sad, or the world's really going to blow up, or, you know, I've seen people with the doomsday banner. Doomsday, doomsday, doomsday, doomsday. I mean, if the doomsday's coming, why are you walking around with a banner? Do something. You know, it's not any good to just sit there and say, It's doomsday, it's going to come, it's going to hit just about everybody, I think. But the idea is that, no, there's something more beautiful. We can take aspects of this whole world and see how negative this world is. We can, we can figure out how bad this world is. We need really anybody to tell us. Things are bad. Things are bad. And that's it, you know. It doesn't make a hundred difference if you try try to help yourself into a purer situation. Things are low, things are down, that's the way it is. And yet it's not it.

Time and time after again. These people have come. And they haven't come from any different place than really we all come from. And these people have come, and they're they're not talking in a different language. They're talking in basic language that we can understand and these people have come, and they look any different than we do. I mean, they have their nose, eyes, ears, face, the works. And they seem any different than anybody else, except for what they have to say. And simply, that there is a higher meaning to this life, there's a better meaning to this life. That, simply there is something to experience, to have, to know. And what is that? I mean, here I am. I travel from place to place to place. I just came back from a world tour a few weeks ago and people have a lot of, you know, people look at me, newsman looks at me and says "a controversial group." And uh the amazing thing is, I am me. And I think I'm controversial. (laughter) You know. I am uh quite satisfied. I've got, I've got what I want to say quite straightened out and yet in this world, I am a controversial figure. Well, that's the world for you. (laughter) But, and I go, you know, from place to place. I'm trying to explain a very simple thing to people.

People have their religions that they have followed. Perhaps even your grandparents followed it. You know, maybe their grandparents followed it. Maybe their, their great, great, great, great, great grandparents followed it. Okay, that's fine. I've got nothing to do. I mean, you want to follow a certain religion, that's your prerogative. But it's like, here you are in this world. And there is something you can have in your life. Something you can have in this, in this lifetime, which is love.

And what kind of love? I mean, when we talk about love, you know, the first thing, I think there's different stages of people. For the young ones, it's like, "Oh, love. The wonderful love." (syrupy voice) Middle-aged "Love. (flat voice, laughter) Love's love. Uh. You know somebody you love? You know something you love? Do you have something you love? Do you have something in you life? And it goes on in different ladders. You know, children have their different theories of love. They love their mommy. They love their daddy. Maybe they love their mommy more than their daddy, because daddy spanks them once in a while. And for every spank on the behind, one degree of love drops down. (laughter) And it kind of holds at it, till the candy comes, and then it goes one degree up. And sometimes maybe you just sit there and fluctuate. What is that love? You know, do I love all these things? Do I have to love all these things to exist in this world? No, I have to love anything in this world. There are people who are nothing but the incarnation of hatred themselves. And they exist in this world just fine. They have any problems. (laughter) I mean, they're surrounded with them, but they really think they have any problems. And then comes the part. Then what is it? What kind of a love am I talking about? This is the love that I'm going to have to dangle my earrings? This is the kind of love I'll have to, you know, put flowers? This is the love that I have to write on my T-shirt? This is the love I have to go around with a spray can, writing on every single highway pillar, love, love, love, love. Is it the love that I have to express towards my wife? And everybody's real quiet. (laughter) That's love. That's love. You know? Somehow that's love too. But I know that in this world, you know, there's the guy walking down the street, and there's the girl walking down the street. They know each other. Eyes meet. Bells ring. Things happen. The two white doves start flying in the sky. And somehow, bingo! You have love. They come together, go for a nice dinner, a nice evening dinner, candlelight, you know, very romantic. And just love starts to just fill and fill and fill and fill. And then there's the saying that, you know, when you're in love, you're blind. We have to go through this stage of being blind. (laughter)

And, I mean, I'm, I'm married, and I have a wife, and I have three children. And I went through the whole process. (laughter) Was it any different for me? You know? It wasn't that I sat there with a draft machine and say, I'm going to draft this one. But it was very beautiful. I met her in an airplane and uh, you know, I mean, it all, it all happened. Love, that is love. But that love, you know, is based upon the kind of foundation that if one piece of puzzle in that foundation is missing, it won't go together. It won't fit. It won't work. And there's even the tolerance, there's even the limits of how much one has to give, how much the other one has to give. And somewhere in between the whole thing, we are trying to juggle, trying to make ourselves fit in the lifestyle, in the life, in the way, in the manner, in the fashion that perhaps we want to see ourselves be. I mean, in this world, so many people get married, and their marriages last. Today, they go to Las Vegas, get married in the overnight church, you know, made for the very purpose of instantly getting married, they that even require blood tests, and that's it. Next day, the wife turns around and says, "Hey, that's all well and fine, but I want a nice mansion to live in, and give me some nice clothes." The husband says, "You sit here all your life long, cook dinner for me, and that's your job, that's it." The wife says, "Hey, forget it." (laughter) The husband says, "Suit yourself." (laughter) Or, it happens vice versa. It doesn't happen only one way, it happens the other way too. And comes your popping divorce, because there's so many people who get divorced in this world. So what kind of love is that? And there are people who are very happily married, but it isn't like they have up ups and downs in their life, asnd it's not like it's because they're not happily married. I mean, you could be happily married, and be miserable in this world. And so, there are all these different floating phenomenas around us that just kind of happen, just kind of take place, and here we are, in the midst of this whole strange thing, sometimes, we find ourselves in.

Look at the situation of the world. I mean, you look at India, it's way, way too overpopulated. You know, and everywhere you see, there's people and horses and cows and buffaloes and goats and donkeys and camels. You have to go to a zoo. I mean, it was very different for me. I took a flight from Rome, next thing I know, I'm getting off at the airport in India, drive out, and it's like, wow, it had been so many years since I had been there. And in one way, it was just really interesting. I just kept showing the animals to the kids. Look, there's an elephant, there's a buffalo, there's a camel, there's this, there's that. And you look at the people, it's hot, you know, and amidst this whole thing, they're trying to achieve happiness. Look at look at the the United States, look at Japan, look at England, look at Europe, look at South America, and look at the very popular every day we read in the newspaper the kind of a state where things are, What is this world coming to? I mean, there's all this nucleare power ready to blow up anytime. Russia's got their missiles pointed at us, and we've got our missiles pointed at Russia. They make one single mistake, and boom, that's it. No questions asked. That's going to happen. And it's the Murphy's Law. It's the Murphy's Law. If you can imagine it happening, it might happen. And so okay, we could sit here and we could make this a political discussion. Should we or shouldn't we? Should the fall three be revised? Fall two be revised? Should it be better if this happens? No. To me, it doesn't need missiles. I mean, there's always the possibility the sun may drop down and hit the earth, and there's always the possibility the earth may move and hit the sun. There's always the possibility the earth may just Pow around and around and come to a perfectly ??? and all of a sudden, we find ourselves floating in space. Sure Murphy's Law is. But to me, it's like, okay, we're trying to change so many situations in this world. And this is not from this age. This is the age going as far back as you can possibly imagine, we're trying to change situations around us. And these situations do not change. They deteriorate and deteriorate and deteriorate. And we try to bring peace in this world, everybody wants peace in this world. We try to change that situation and it's very tough. And to me, there's only two variables. Either the situation has to change which man has for years and years and years and years tried change and hasn't been very successful at it. Governments have come. Governments have gone. People's ideas have come. People's ideas have gone. Civilizations have been created and civilizations have been destroyed. Ideas of people to be happy have been tried on every single level you can possibly imagine it. And yet there's only one variable left that has to be tried out. That's us human beings. Wait. Go around and see this lack of peace in the world. There is lack of peace. How is this peace going to be on this earth? Is it going to be by coming up with more theories? Is it going to manifest by coming up with new ideas? Or is it going to happen when that human being is in peace with himself? And I know that once that human being is in peace with himself, no situation needs to be changed, it can all flow, it can all manifest for this human being.

Because here I am. I have my suit on. I brought the suit from L.A. with me because I knew the one I was going to wear would get all covered and get all lined up. So I put the suit on 15 minutes before I came. I combed my hair, brushed my teeth, put on this shirt, put on this tie. I didn't change my thoughts. It looked all right to me. (laughter) It was much darker in there. And uh I feel pretty good. You know? Physically I feel good. Spiritually I feel good. On all levels I feel pretty good. But you know the unique thing is I felt just like I feel right now when I arrived and my suit all pointed up and hair is not quite combed and and teeth not quite brushed and I didn't even have any lunch and I felt fine. And then I had a little lunch, put on a new suit and I come out here and I feel fine too. Because I know that if I feel miserable inside it does not make any difference what I try to do to change my appearance to look good. When I go back into that place, maybe it's my bedroom and there I lie. I mean it's like you know we have the rouge or we have the face cream or we have this or we have that, you know, there's so much out in this world today to make you the rouge itself. I call it instant health. There you are, pale face. Take a little, go like this and boom! You're not in the sun forever and you are as healthy as could be. Instant health. Because. But if I am happy within, if I feel good, not that I I'm missing a cold is that it? Feeling good is that it? If I have a cold, I have a heart disease, I have high blood pressure, I have a pain in my body anywhere does that make me feel good? No! It's beyond that. But if I feel good within, if I feel good inside then I feel good period. And that is exactly what humans need to feel, feel good, feel good within, feel that peace within.

Because today, America is not at war with anything. Americans can relax. Can they? Can you? Look at the amount of suicides that happen. Look at the amount of crime that is on the rise. I was in Miami at the time of the riots. I saw the riots. You see this big, big, big flame and smoke all over the place and you see the TV and you see people getting hurt and you would see that there would be police there and they would be just looking, they couldn't do anything, because it's the people they have to protect but when the people themselves turn against people nothing in the world can stop it. On no basis there is to stop it whatsoever but when human beings, we are the factors, I see it that this creation was created by that Creator for whom? Maybe maybe there's a very godless way of looking at it. Perhaps it is. But when I see that beautiful sunset, somehow I know that in his absolute majestic Grace that Creator has created that sunset for me .

When I look at that sky and I lie down and I look at that blue sky I know that that sky had to be blue. It wouldn't have been green, it wouldn't have been any other color except what it is and for everything for me to enjoy I am like I am everybody in this world is also the part of that creation, that immaculate manifestation, I'm part. The Creator creating every single plant, the Creator creating this this world, this universe. A Supreme Being. Maybe there are some people who who who think that, well Darwin his theory ??? he didn't believe the world was created as such, kind of a bug floated off on the log and hit the island and the whole world ??? and do I believe that or I believe that? Well, it's irrelevant, it's so irrelevant because I believe in something so Supreme that if there was an asteroid that came and hit this earth with life on it, it was by his Grace, by his will, by his pleasure that that happened but for me to go around denying the existence of that Ultimate Being isn't likely to change anything. It exists. It goes on. Be I call him Allah, be I call him God, be I call him Bhagwan, be I call him anything but there is this heart, heart of heart of me and then what guides us? What surrounds us? And be a part because it exists, be a part of it. Because it's there, because there is that appreciation. When I am a part of it, I am in that bliss, I am in that happiness. When I am a part of it and that part of of that Creator is within me. You know, I am not going around trying to come up with a new religion, I'm really not. There's already too many religions and every religion has their own saying and every religion follows and believes in one omnipotent, one omnipresent, one omniscient and yet let me come to the point of saying "Fine, there is one omnipotent, there is one omnipresent, there is one omnipreent but! I want I want to see it. I can't just sit here and believe because I read it in the book when I was in school. The morals, you know, kind of pushed on me "Hey there is an omnipresent, there is an omniscient and there is an omnipotent, there is this book that he he he… but I want to believe a book because there was also a physics book and in one page, in one statement it says that ??? is not divisible. (section too damaged to understand) it's not really true anymore. I want to see. I want to see that that thing that is omnipresent and then I can believe, then I can trust, that I can know. I want to feel that thing. I want to feel that power that's omnipotent, that guides us making everything come alive. Me, my, myself, my life force. I wanna feel it. I wanna see. I wanna know. It is within me and I'm not here to come out and say "Guys, by the way, I have perfectd a method of letting you have that experience. I haven't perfected it. It's been there ever since in you. I have nothing to offer, nothing to give out of my pocket, no formulas, no exercises. That, that's pretty good. I've had a lot of people come around with yoga, with exercises, "Do this, do that." And somewho even I knew that stage I can understand that human life and instead of trying to destroy it, I can like it, love it, respect it, and live it myself. Enjoy this life. Enjoy, it's a gift, it's given to us.

Do we have an option? Do we have a choice to come in this world? Because not even in the faintest of anybody's dreams and then there comes that certain day, that certain hour, that certain second, that certain minute, that certain moment when we are held upside down and a nice whack is given to us and then it is entered in our birth certificate which certifies that we're alive. That's a really good way. You know if you're driving down the road, somebody stops you and says "Hey, who are you?" Humbly, without having any notions of beliefs or anything, just turn around and say "Please and if you believe me, you have an ID, that's it, you just exist. You could be anybody but anyway here we are. Secondly take that breath, the moments are entered and we are certified that we are now existent. We exist. Now do we decide, do we say to the doctor "Hey, wait a minute, just wait a few more minutes, let me come into this world exactly at four o'clock?" No no, none of our options and then comes a very much a time in life that we, nobody, nobody likes to think about and comes that time in our life the body stays behind but it's non-functional. The eyes are there but they can't see anything. The brain is there, it can't relate to anything. We are no one. That's true, that what is then life? Me that I associate myself with, I look at myself. What was my name before I was born? What was my name when nobody had quite decided what was my… was I going to be a George? Was I going to be an Albert? Was I going to be? Now that I am what I am, what I think I am and when I go away what do I become? Between that time that I take my first breath, till the time I'm going to take my last breath, I'm going to enjoy myself because there's something to be enjoyed and I'm not here, you know, really to come and tell you "Look, hey everyone of you is really unhappy, you're all unhappy, you have everything you've always wanted, a nice house in San Francisco, Santa Barbara, Santa Cruz. Maybe your family, your nice car, your nice job, your nice everything, everything you've always wanted. Maybe you have it and maybe that's making you very happy but believe me there's a happiness even beyond that happiness and happiness that's so real I have to think about it inside. To be in that, in that, in that, in that place where I can be in company freely. Wwhat I am, that individual and there is that creative me and believe me I'm not going to sit there. I mean, look at it people and maybe they want to orient themselves but I can tell them to go to the agricultural. Maybe somebody comes to me and I'm blind, I'd like to see, "Would you like to see this world and hey I can see you too" and yet for me to be able to go within is something incredible, is something that is fantastic and in this world and everywhere and every particle and every molecule. The peace. If people think that absence of war is peace, they're wrong. If you were to take a cube that was perfectly dark inside and somehow be able to extract all the darkness from that cube would it be filled with light? But if it left cube was filled with light, darkness will be gone will be filled. By stopping the war, beginning and end of a war is one thing and yet everything we look for, everything we really want in our life that's what counts and that's what counts.

I'm not here to try to give you a philosophy about the whole thing because there's a whole bunch of people out in this world just handing out a lot of philosophies. That's alright. I'm not here to tell you "Look you can be happy you could be happy you just can't I'm not here to tell you "You're a sinner." No, you are as much a part of that God's creation as I am. You are as much as a part of that creation, of that perfectness. You are not a sinner. I'm not here to tell you that. I'm not here to make you feel like you belong in the pit. I'm here to tell you that if you think you're in the pit, you're not and then I'm here to tell you that if you think you're a sinner, you're not. You're something much more beautiful. You are something much more fantastic. Realize it. Understand it. Be a part of it. Outside. Being in that companionship of that Creator is more than I can ask for and I can be in that companionship, I can be in that love, I can be in that space. This is not a philosophy. There is something more real behind it. There is something more deep than that in this lifetime, yes in this lifetime, and without going to the Himalayas. You know you can't be in that place yes and without greeting the millions of students if you can be happy, if you can be in that space, you can be in that place where you are in that Creator. The one that has created you. The one you have to know, "Hey by the way, you know, my name is Sharan Shah. The one that knows you inside out and that's the place. It's a very simple thing I'm doing. I go from place to place, country to country, town to town, and what do I do? Well I make people happy. That's all. That's the kind of thing I like to do. It's nice. It's nice to see people happy and the people are pretty miserable in this world and to see them happy being in India, yes, made some a lot of people happy and how? by cracking a joke? no by sitting there and rehearsing a speech? No nobody writes speeches. I sit there in the back room. Have I got a stand in front of the mirror for me to and why not? Because what I'm saying is coming from my experience. I have to make it up. I have to get into "It's real for the millions and millions who have received it. It's real for the millions and millions who have experienced it and it can be real for us in wherever we are so I won't take any more of your time