This untitled booklet contains three of Rawat's turgid speeches from 1979.

Prem Rawat (Maharaji) 3 Speeches - 1979

You have to do it

Guru Maharaj Ji's Satsang, Denver, February 23rd 1979

SO PREMIES, it's been a long time. I was just thinking today. More and more information was coming to me about this program and how the premies were here and there. On the audio feed, I could hear the skill saws and the hammers clicking away and so on and so forth. And I was just thinking how fortunate we really are, first of all, to be able to be here, to be able to come together.

I know there are people outside who do security for this place. They're not premies. They're out there. It's cold outside. They don't think they're fortunate because they are at this hall. To them it's another day, another business, and thank God it's Friday, because tomorrow is Saturday and then the day after that it's Sunday their weekend off. They can do whatever they want to do.

And yet, how fortunate we are, first of all, to have the Grace to be alive, to be here in this existence. Because you know, people in this world could care less. They don't think about that. To them it's of no concern. They're alive. "That's the part of life, man. You're here. Do your number, do your thing." And that's it. That's their whole scope. That's their whole focus. That's their whole understanding.

I don't usually go and take off weekends. As a matter of fact, that's when a lot happens. And I know that you have come from wherever you have come to this place to go even beyond any experience that a weekend can ever give you, say camping in a motor home, decked out somewhere. People are going to go skiing and do this and do that. And that's entertainment. And that's what they'd really like to do. And we really look at it. We come for a reason that nobody knows. A big question. "Where are you going?"

I don't know, but it is quite feasible that while you were flying down here somebody asked you, "Well, where are you going? Are you going to see your relatives or are you going to Denver for skiing?" Whatever. And you get off the airplane and they say, "Have a nice weekend."

And the thing is, we come for a purpose that's even gerater (sic) than what they can expect, what they can udnerstand. Because first of all they don't even understand what life is. People in this world don't understand what life is.

Life has a meaning. Life has a motive. Life has a purpose. Life is life. And there is nothing greater than this life, than the true life and the true meaning of life itself.

I know there's 60 million dollars worth of gold somewhere. I mean, there has to be. There's probably more than that, hidden under this ground, that people don't know about. There's probably a billion barrels of oil stuck somewhere way below this earth that people just don't know about. It's all there. And really, again, the question comes. (This is a new way to put it) Is the oil important or the oil pump? And even when you have an oil drill and the oil comes gushing out, then what is most important? Well, that little tap to put on that gusher so that, in fact, that oil can be harnessed.

That's the way life is. Life is more precious than 10 billion, 60 billion – all the money put together in this world. And life is more precious than any oil ever could be. And life is more precious than anything.

And yet what is the purpose of this life? What do people actually do with this life? Where do they utilize this life? What have they understood this life to be really all about? Nothing. Nothing whatsoever.

I was in Los Angeles for a long time and I really didn't go to town or anything like that. I pretty much stayed at the residence. And I didn't get much exposure. (That's very good.)

And yet when you come to Denver, it's dry. And you look at Los Angeles. And it just rained and rained and rained. And then it shook and shook and shook. And then rained and rained and rained. Incredible. You know, people in California say, "Oh, this is very usual for California." All the time I've been in California I never experienced anything like that. And it's all OK, you know. It's OK.

These earthquakes were getting pretty serious. Someone got some information pamphlets on earthquakes. The first picture in the pamphlet was of the San Andreas fault. I looked at it. And the San Andreas fault starts a little bit north of San Francisco, weaves right into the ocean, weaves right back into the land, comes straight across, and goes right down into Mexico. And people are building these new things there. There is San Francisco and there is Los Angeles and it goes right through it. And when this earthquake was happening, people were talking about tidal waves and so on and so forth. And it was like, wow, what would happen if this earthquake that is happening just triggered off a chain reaction and that was it.

According to the picture it runs somewhere behind the residence, quite a ways behind the residence. And this residence would just get taken out into the ocean. (It would become an island. That'd be nice. Have your own island.) And then people were talking about the tidal wave. And I said, "How big of a tidal wave are they expecting?"

They said, "Oh, about 300 feet." I said, "That's fine. That's OK. Let it come. We'll have a nice beach in the front yard and it'll be just great."

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Prem Rawat aka Guru Maharaj Ji in 1979But that's all a joke. This was all just kidding around and to try to keep spirits up. People were there when the earthquake was happening and some were very concerned about it. Everybody was joking, "Oh yeah, we could just do this and we could do that." And all these things that happen.

And then I just started thinking. I said, "People are really crazy. If they know that this is going to happen, if they know really this is going to happen, why all this development and all the people?" And then I thought to myself, "Well, wait a minute. This whole world knows that sooner or later there is going to be a doomsday. Because it's a very straightforward theory. What had a beginning must have an end. And yet we continue, we go on, like nothing ever happened." I mean, there are policemen who give out tickets. I mean, really, can you imagine doomsday coming two minutes away, and standing on the side of the highway, "OK. Can I see your driver's licence please?" Or a guy selling Coca Cola over the counter. Whatever. We just go about our business.

Because life's meaning, to us, is how we practice it. What's comfortable. What we can comprehend. What we can understand. And that's it. That's life's meaning. Four walls. Protection. Live! And as a matter of fact these are the things that maybe even an initiator will get up and talk about. But we never consider these things. Can you imagine walking down the street thinking that? You just don't! It just all happens. It's all in the back. Life has been accepted. "Look, this is you, this is your habit." And really, from the reality of life, how far are we? Well, we are just miles and miles and miles away.

Because you look at this world. What happens in this world? You look at the whole situation that just

happened in Iran. Incredible! Just outrageous. I mean, I'm pretty sure that in 1977, the Shah wasn't thinking in these terms. It was very beautiful. "OK, let's make a deal. Here's so many oil barrels and you give me so many jets. And, look, I'm going to do this and I'm going to do that." And all of a sudden – Boom! "And I'm leaving for a vacation." More like a permanent vacation.

What happens? And so many people were walking around with guns in their hands, machine guns. And even now they're walking around with machine guns in their hands. And in America, what do we do? Turn on the TV and watch it all happen. And then the news ends and it's finished! It's done and over with. That's it!

But is that life? Is that the way we live in this world? Yes, it is. But that's not life. That's what we think life is. That's what we pretend life should be.

Everybody has expectations. God might come one day. People who live in Seattle can't imagine blue skies and white clouds. To them it'll be raining and thundering.

Californians can't imagine that it'll be cloudy. I don't know what Alaskans think. But somewhere in the picture there are supposed to be these big white clouds and God's supposed to come streaking through there. And then everybody is supposed to look up and say, "Wow!" I don't know what people's reaction is going to be. Probably everybody is going to faint. The guy sitting at the Air Force base before he passes out will trigger on the alarm to get the planes up to see what's going on. Some people are going to say, "Look, that's a UFO."

I mean, whether this is going to happen or not is not what I'm debating. What I'm saying is, what are people going to do if that was to happen? Well, it depends, again, whenever it happened. What would people's reactions be?

"It's a UFO." You know, it's like Superman. "It's a bird. It's a plane. It's `stuper-man'." You know?

And so God comes. And then people have imaginations and expectations. And then God is going to show up. And some people are just saying that this world is hopeless. To them, God's going to show up and say, "This world is hopeless!" And people who are saying, "Oh my children, you have done well!" To them, God's going to come out and say, "Oh my children, you have done well." And people who believe in resurrection, God's going to say, "OK everybody, up on your feet." And then God comes out and says, "OK everybody, up on your feet." And all the graveyards crack up a little bit and the slab falls down and everybody rises and this whole thing happens.

I'm not saying that one of these things is going to happen. As a matter of fact, none of these things might happen. But what I am trying to tell you is between all these concepts … If God came out and said, "Listen, everybody, listen my children, you're really crazy. Because your hands that you think are hands are really your feet. And what you think are your feet, are really your hands. So now, wake up to the true consciousness and stand upside down and walk," which would be, he would be saying, rightside up. Now, what are the chances of this happening?

Well, you could ask a computer, but the computer can't tell you anything. You will have to input, "Look, if this guy says –" That's what a computer is, really. "If

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Prem Rawat aka Guru Maharaj Ji in 1979x equals four, go to 10." And at 10, it says, "Print 'You are crazy'." And you input this statement into the computer. "What if God came on a particular day on a particular date, on a particular time … "

First of all, it would be horrendous for anybody to sit down and write a program like that. It'd be just outrageous. That guy would fry so fast. "Well, what do you write? It could happen … "

OK, so may be you go to a minister, or maybe you even go to the Pope and say, "What are the chances of God coming out and saying, 'My children … ' "

Now this is happening in all languages, mind you. In America, it's American, with an American accent. In Texas, it's Texan – "You all," you know. And over England it's in British accent or Irish or Scottish. In German; "Achtung!" And so on.

Now the first thing is, to get an appointment to see the Pope to ask this question would be completely outrageous. If you did get the chance, he might say, "Well, that's impossible." But then the question is, "What is impossible for god?" Or he might say, "Look! The chance of that happening is one to three zillion." Well, then there is a chance! If it's even one to three zillion, there is a chance. Because you can't say it's impossible.

I mean, after all, in the whole history, God decided one day that this earth was no good. I mean, that's a heavy-duty statement when you explore it. First of all, we are the puppets. He's the puppeteer, making us dance. What happened? He created this earth. What happened? Why all of a sudden did he say, "Forget it. Scratch it."?

In our concept, God is like that one company that made this car called the Edsel. And this Edsel was really pretty good and this and that. It was the "car of the future," or whatever. It didn't sell. So the guy said, "Scratch it." Now we hear that story and we say, "Man, the head of the corporation is really crazy. Why would they make a car that they know they can't sell?"

But we don't look at that with a positive attitude. "Oh yeah, you know what happened, man? This was really beautiful. This company came out with a car. They couldn't sell it, so they scratched it." I mean, that's not a positive attitude. That's a very negative attitude. "These guys are crazy! Why did they come out with a product that they couldn't go through with?"

And then when we take God or when we take perfection and we take everything and put it on our grid – you know, little sections everywhere with little squares to match up, to phase in – then it won't fit. It won't fit.

If tomorrow someone in New York City signed a bill to make two buildings bigger than the World Trade Centers, completed the job by 1990 and the first of January 1991 said "Scratch it," what would happen? Well it would hit the front page of all the newspapers. Everybody would go crazy. Everybody would say, "Well, what is this New York trying to do, anyway? What's going on?

You think that's completely crazy. "Why get into something you know you can't finish?" That's a very good phrase. We use that all the time. "Why get into something you know you can't finish?" I mean, don't we use that? Don't we use that statement?

But then, what about God? When we take that Creator in that concept, it all falls into a wrong place. What happens? "How come God decided: 'Scratch one'?" (We don't know. Maybe there were more scratches before that.) And then He flooded the whole thing with water. And why water? To the scientists, if they were to evaluate this, they would find that water was the most ridiculous substance to use for total destruction. Heat would have been a lot better. Or taking away something that was more important, like air.

But those are not our concerns. Those are not matters of our concern, because life is a nice, neat square and you sit on it. That's all.

It's like, today there is a program. And if today you walked in here, all the premies were sitting in the middle and there were no seats, what would you do? I mean, the first reaction would be to go where there are seats. When that all got filled up, people would say, "Well – " I don't know. I know what the initiators would do. They'd go to the nearest usher and say, "Where are the chairs? What happened?" Maybe not. They're used to VIP treatment sometimes. So it would be quite natural if they did.

But isn't that the way life is? It's a nice little chair. It's expected. When everything is done you sit on it and that's it. That's it. That's your life. it's all great.

But premies, this is where the world thinks that they are right. This is the difference. I wear a suit. And there's people in this world who wear a suit. And I don't think people who wear a suit in this world are crazy. That has nothing to do with it. It's not the difference of opinion in anything except they think that they have got, what they think, what they perceive, what they look at, what

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Prem Rawat aka Guru Maharaj Ji in 1979they feel, what they touch, is life. And I think otherwise, that that's not life. That's your concept. That's your dream. That's a cartoon.

In India a long time ago a premie came from Europe and brought me a little super-eight millimeter projector and some cartoon films. They were "Popeye" and "Tom and Jerry." Films like that. And so I watched them alone. And then I figured, "Wow, man. This would be a really good way to find out what people in India think of foreign countries." So I called everybody and I said, "Look I've got some films from Europe. Would you like to see them?"

"Yes, of course."

"OK. I'll put it on." Crank. They hear the sound. They see the cat jump, the mouse run. And it's like, "Yeah? Yeah? It's really true! It must be really amazing, the cats in foreign countries. People look funny."

Because, in India, somebody might see something with his own eyes, he might question that. But if he sees it on a piece of film, it's unquestionable. And here were these cartoons. And they were in colour. And you can imagine for these very innocent people, to them, for that moment, a reality manifested. A real reality.

I don't know if they're really true but as a joke people always throw it out that there was a very innocent, very ignorant man who went to a movie. And he sees the two heroes fighting together. And he was a farmer, carrying a stick with him always. When he saw these two guys fighting and the bad guy was winning, the good guy was losing, so he got up, went right to the screen, took his stick and started beating the bad guy!

And I mean it's like a reality manifests. And OK, there's another example. They have these completely concave mirrors. And then they put a plate over that which has a hole in the centre with about a two-inch diameter. And when you place an object directly underneath that, because of the reflection, it shows up on top. And I know the first time I saw it, I went to grab the object. And it was a very, very strange, funny sensation. There was nothing there.

It's just like when you skip a step. Sometimes you walk up on top of the steps and you're walking and you're walking and you're walking. And then you get to the top of the steps and you take one more step and it feels funny. Why? Why should it feel funny? It's because to you it was such an expectation that there would be a step there. To a man it's such a reality. To me, at least, it was a reality that that object, that ring, was sitting there, was really there, so I should go and grab it! And when I did that and nothing happened, it was strange.

So far that thing that doesn't even exist, that feeling is very strange, very odd. And yet to a certain extent this is what happens with us. We go on in this world thinking that it's all a reality. And this is where, again, the difference of opinion is.

Look, there's no problem. You wear a suit. That's no problem. And there's no problem if you don't wear a suit. And there's no problem if you climb Mt. Everest. And there's no problem if you don't. And there's no problem if you can fly – like Superman, not like a pilot. And there is no problem if you can't.

The problem is that when that point comes in our lives for that reality to be manifesting, and it doesn't manifest, now that's a very sour, that's a very bad surprise.

Because we live in this life. "God, I am doing a good deed. Look, I give donations." I know in America, donations and all that stuff is very different than in India. They have these little slots here and you just put the dime in and so on and so forth. But in India, it's a very widely-spread thing. "Give donations. Go to the holy places." And it's a very common thing. And I've seen people walk, lying down, full prostrations, and crawling, not for two or three miles, but for hundreds of miles. And all this good deed – "OK, God, man, you know, I'm giving my donations. I am visiting my holy places. I'm doing this and I'm doing that. I'm reading my scriptures. Make everything go right for me. I deserve it."

And very plainly Krishna says in the Gita that you will not recognize me, you will not understand me, you cannot open up to me, you cannot understand my Knowledge by going to holy places, by giving donations, by doing good deeds, by any of these things.

And yet everybody wants to live a good, solid, sincere life. "Look, I paid my dues. I just want to live clean." And I mean, people just go on like that. "This is what I do. This is what I want to do. This is the way I do it. Look, that's my life." No. You think that. You think that; that that's your life.

You think that you just live it, wake up, do this, do that and that's your life. There are people in this world and once they become parents they figure that their responsibility ends the day their son or daughter gets married. As far as they are concerned, that's his life. And as far as their liability should be concerned, that's it! We think all the

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Prem Rawat aka Guru Maharaj Ji in 1979time, "Oh yeah, there's one more step." And we lift our foot and there's nothing there. And that funny feeling, funny sensation, comes.

Same way, premies. In fact, what does this Knowledge do? In fact, what does Guru Maharaj Ji do? And what happens? Guru Maharaj Ji makes this life a reality. Guru Maharaj Ji takes you out of the cartoons, Knowledge takes you out of the cartoons, the realm of dreams …

I know that Mahatma Gurucharnanand Ji was giving satsang, and he was saying, "Look, why do I want salvation? I don't want to finally reach all the way up there and get connected to Sat, Chit and Anand." I stopped. Believe me, I was walking from my bed, and I stopped. Like, "Wow! What's he talking about?"

And then he said, "What am I going to do with it?"

And I said, "You're right. What are you going to do with it?"

One day – I vaguely remember this story -- there was this kid and he always wanted to be with God, he wanted to be just completely with God. That was his ultimate dream: God. And so he went one day to Guru Maharaj Ji and he said, "Look, Guru Maharaj Ji, if there is any way you can send me to God, do that. I want to be with God."

So Guru Maharaj Ji said, "Well, what are you going to do once you get there?"

And he said, "Well, I'll just sit there and look at God all the time."

And Guru Maharaj Ji said, "Well, what if sitting is not permitted?"

Then he said, "Well, I'll stand and look at God."

Maharaj Ji said, "Well, what if you get tired?"

And he said, "Well, I'll sit down and look at God."

And Guru Maharaj Ji said, "But remember, sitting down is not permitted." And then Guru Maharaj Ji explained to him very beautifully. He said, "Look, these eyes that you perceive with, that you picture God with, will be left here. You won't be able to see God, hear God, feel God, and merge with God. That can only happen now in this lifetime." And this is true.

That is why a so-called Savior, a Master, a Guide comes into this world. I mean, if the function of a guide were to play cello, would you call that person a guide? No. Whatever they call them – celloists – that would be that person. A flute player; flutist. A drum player; drummer. A guitar player; guitarist. A person who sings; singer. And so I mean, this is the way the English language is, that when you say a word in those terms, it designates something.

People at nighttime kneel down by their bedside, "Almighty Lord, be my guide, be my savior," whatever they say. What does the word "guide" tell you? I mean, what does it express? "My Guide." What it expresses is that you need to be guided! And why do you need to be guided? Because you're lost. And where are you lost? You don't say "Oh my God, my Savior, see You at the pearly gates. Guide me from then on. Oh my Savior, oh my God, see You at H & H' Crossing." ("Heaven & Hell." Both begin with the same first letter.) But, "Be my guide now. Guide me."

And yet if that voice were to come to that person and say, "Are you lost?" – you'd turn around, "Who is that?"

Yes, we are lost. When we say that we need a guide, when we say that we want help, there has to be a reason why we need a guide, why we need help in this world.

To me, of course, in understanding Knowledge or even having a curiosity for Knowledge, or even having – I mean, anything, even trust in Guru Maharaj Ji – I know that the first thing I learned was never to question. Because we question from what authority? Who am I? That's what I want to find out. Once I find out who I am, then it gives me some kind of authority to even question. How can you fill out a form when you don't even know your name?

But one of the greatest things is to completely have that faith in Guru Maharaj Ji. First thing was, "Yes." A complete recognition. This has to all come from us. Guru Maharaj Ji or anybody in the world can't knock us on our head. Even Jesus couldn't knock right sense into the heads of his opponents. He had the power to come back after he died. And he had a power to tell those fish to go into that net. It would have been a very simple thing to just turn that guy around to the other side. But love, trust and faith only come when we recognize where we are. Our first recognition of ourselves is complete. Our first understanding of ourselves is that we are perfect. Our first recognition of ourselves is, "Look. I am good. What I am doing is right."

Look at a child. Child comes to an age. And like to Wadi now, sometimes she gets into things she shouldn't be getting into and I come and say, "Wadi, don't do that." And she has a very cute way of saying, "Wha? Wha?" She doesn't say "Why?" and she doesn't say, "What?" She says, "Wha?" She doesn't want an answer, really. She's just going and doing her thing. But, "Wha?"

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And when you tell a child five years old, "What are you doing? What are you doing? Why are you doing that for?", it just breaks that child's heart. Or that all depends what kind of child that is. There are children who'll come back and kick you on the shin. "Get lost!" Sometimes they turn around and look at you like, "You stupid. Just get out of here!"

I mean, maybe they don't even mean it. Maybe that's the way we translate it. This is quite possible; we would translate it like that. But to me, first thing I realized that, "Look. Plain, simple, pure. I'm lost. That's it. And then to see that, "Yes, my resource is right there. Guru Maharaj Ji. Knowledge."

But if I'm completely full of ego, if I'm completely full of "Why's," if I'm completely full of, stuffed with, all that, then where will that place be?

And this is what I was trying to give you an example of. That child who thinks that he is right in what he is doing – it is very hard for that child to be convinced otherwise.

Because usually it either ends up in a very snotty gesture from the child, be it a kick on your shin or anything, or a very bad look. And if the child is very humble, a cry. The bottom lip bubbles up, like, "What are you doing?"

But then when a child is open … "Be like a child." There is a stage in a child. This is why people use that phrase, "Be like a child." Because there is an age where the child is completely open. He now has the capability to be able to comprehend you, has the capability to be able to understand you. You see, it's a very close gap there, but that child will understand you.

All you have to do is say one word – "dodo," and the child picks it up. From there on, "dodo, dodo, dodo, dodo, dodo." You know? That child is completely and perfectly capable at that age, at that one certain age, to be able to comprehend. As a matter of fact, I mean, it can literally say words that are very difficult, remember whole sentences, phrases.

And yet that child has no concept. Yet that child is completely open. What you tell that child, the child doesn't go, "Why?" "Why, daddy? Why is two and two four?" I mean, all the parents would have had it if that started happening and if they didn't get out of that age.

But then there is that point in that child where he can completely understand you perfectly. He can pronounce those words perfectly. As a matter of fact, he doesn't know the meaning of the words, but knows what the whole sentence put together means, knows the meaning, knows the context of "dodo," knows the context of "water," knows the context …

Like Hansi. He isn't old enough yet to be able to come to Marolyn and say, "Mommy, I am tired." And yet, of course if he's not capable of doing that, it's because he doesn't know what "tired" really means. But he knows that a whole thing – "Water." He doesn't know water is H20, he doesn't know water comes in good shape and bad shape, and he doesn't know what the colour of the water is. And he doesn't know that water comes from taps. And he doesn't know all that stuff that we know about; like the distilled Sparkletts water and Rocky Mountain water and Colorado Springs water and Colorado River water, and, "Don't drink this." Water means an entire thing; satisfaction of thirst, quenching of thirst. And that's it.

And how does that child respond? Openly. Not negatively. Not positively. That child has placed himself in a completely

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open stage. He's not even thinking at that time. He's grabbing your meaning, your gist. And premies, that is the way that we have to be.

I know that there is so much ego. One initiator in his satsang was talking about this. "Be like a child." Ego comes and slaps you on your face. "What do you mean, 'be like a child'? You mean wear diapers?" Somebody want to really make it into a joke, like, "Man, be like a child. Come on. That's just really crazy." No.

We are so much hanging from the needle of mind. Our balance factors are so absurd. I mean, premies, look at this. It's really true in this world that if you get a traffic ticket in the morning, it ruins your whole day. It really does. For some people; that's it.

Or if somebody gets fired, it ruins their whole day. I mean, the big stories, you know?

And yet we are so unconscious about this life. We know we are going to die one day and it doesn't even ruin our single hour. That's how unconscious we are. I mean, you get a ticket and you have to pay $25: "That's it!" I've seen people standing on the side of the road and the sheriff is giving them a ticket and their ears are red and they're just like mad, you know, really mad. They're mad at the whole world. They're mad at everybody. "Why are you looking at me?"

And then I've seen people with a flat tire on the side of the road and that's like, "God! What happened?"

I'm pretty sure that when the Malibu fire came, it ruined a lot of people's day.

And it's like that. And yet we know that one day we're going to die. And nobody even thinks about it twice. Now that's how ignorant, I should say we are. Because that is a fact.

Of course there are people who say, "Look, that never happens to me." But it does. It just pure does happen to you, too, sooner or later. Everybody thinks later. Nobody thinks about it. Very few people.

And I'm not saying that you, right on the front of your bed, should write, "I'm going to die one day." Get a watch, LED watch, and press the button, show the time and then say, "You're going to die one day."

They have watches that say, "I love you." And it says, "You're going to die one day." And there are cameras. When you click a picture in the camera, the shutter comes and blocks your view. And the shutter goes up. On the back of the shutter it doesn't say, "You're going to die one day." Every picture flashes up, "You're going to die one day." No. I'm not saying that that's the way it should be.

But we have to see that here we are in this world. And one day there is going to be an end. I know there are people who make that end really positive. They say, "Well, now he had really become dear to the Lord." All questionable, you know, which way he turned at the intersection. One intersection who knows? I mean, heaven might be a great big place and just outside the heaven fence might be the little place where God lives.

But the main thing is that here we are. Look! If we become dear to the Lord, great. That's OK. That's fine. That's beautiful. And if we don't become dear to Lord … I don't know, whatever you want to think. But here we are, we're alive. And that Lord that we want to become so dear to, has sent us here to do something for this life.

And OK, maybe there are people, there are atheists, who don't even believe in God. Then believe in yourself! Because, believe me, there are people in India who don't

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Prem Rawat aka Guru Maharaj Ji in 1979know who God is. And you know what's funny? They're very, very religious people. And there are people in America who don't know what Bhagwan is, and go to church every day. It's true! Same thing in Italy and same thing everywhere. But to fulfil, to accomplish the purpose, to realize. who you are, not in concepts, but in reality …

I mean, there is that movie, supposedly, "Heaven Can't Wait," or something like that. And what is it all about? A concept. A Concorde sitting there. Get on it. Go where you want to go.

I mean, what are the hinges of the pearly gate painted? How big is the pearly gate? Which direction does it face? What does it say on it? "Forty-four East-" "Thirty-three …" What does it say? "Heaven." In English? Urdu, Hindi. French? Italian? German? What? What is the language that that big guy speaks with the huge beard and a big book and a huge feather pen – Parker. Papermate? What? – and what's the language he writes it down in? Is it Urdu, Arabic, Hindi, English, Italian.

"Mama Mia! This guy's got a bad record." "Any remarks?" "Mama Mia!"

So what is it? These are our dreams, our fragmented dreams. No reality. No. I mean, if I went on like this, just went on. Well, who makes the paint for the pearly gates? What is it, polyurethane, lacquer, hot-paint? What kind of polish do they use to keep the pearly gates clean? Is it made out of pearl? Who made it?

I mean, look. These things can get people rolling faster than I don't know what, really get people whizzing. A joke. But these are fragments of our dream that we really think are reality somewhere along the line. "And God, I hope one day I'll end up in the pearly gates." Well, how do you know they're pearly? They might be metallic green as far as you're concerned. As a matter of fact, there might not be a gate there at all. So what is it?

And this is what our life is. It's a paper doll. It's a Japanese house. You know, if you swing your briefcase too much, it'll go right through the wall. And these are our concepts. These are what we live by. And yet only Guru Maharaj Ji can show us the reality. Only Knowledge can show us the reality, bring us to that.

And when it happens, it's gorgeous. It's incredible. Beautiful. Our concepts stop. It's so incredible that you don't even have a chance to say, "Wow!" You don't even need to say, "Wow!" Your expressions are truth. Your expressions are accurate. Your love is real.

It's like that whole rose, that whole lotus, just blooms. Not one petal, not two petals, but the whole rose, the whole lotus, every one of them opens up. All of a sudden in the darkness, there is light. And for things that man does everything for, even kills for …

There are so many great leaders. And when they get up, they say, "We don't believe in violence." And they are directly very responsible for the violence.

When man starts to sail on a boat made out of paper, it is all questionable how far he's going to go. When the elements in that water start to eat that paper away, get that paper wet, start rotting that paper away, that boat will just dissolve!

Our elements that we live in, our concepts, our egos, our maya, starts to eat us up. Then how long can we live? How long is it going to last?

Look, living is not life, as far as I'm concerned. Just because you live every day doesn't mean that you know what life is all about. You only know the meaning of life, when you open up to from where this life came from; when you open up, when you merge, when you go into from where this life gets its life from, when you understand the Life of all lives.

A person may be a graduate in Russian? M.A., learned, having all the degrees there are, know all the Russian dictionaries, but he cannot talk to a person – doesn't matter how dumb that person may be – in English. Then what good is it, for all that wealth and that "to know" – of that knowledge?

That's why, I guess, it clearly explains that this is the Knowledge of all the knowledges. I know there are kids sitting here from Unity School. Now I'm not saying that when you go back home you say, "I'm not going to school tomorrow. I want the Knowledge of all knowledges."

I was at Unity School yesterday. It was a very beautiful experience. And yet the knowledge and the care and the love for the children there – it's all fine. Beautiful. But the love and the meaning of this life is far more greater than that.

I was there, you know, in one of the classes while the teacher was teaching. I walked in the back of the class, told the teacher to keep on going. And it was like he was teaching. And all the kids were there. They were going to play a game. And they drew a clock up. And you started to say a word. The first couple of children said the word, and then the other group had to say the word that began with the last letter of the word, and it went around.

And there were a few kids that didn't get asked at first but finally, I guess, did get asked. And they got stuck at

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Prem Rawat aka Guru Maharaj Ji in 1979one last one. Because the first letter was from "fox," and the letter before it ended with "n." So this particular word had to then in fact begin with "n" and end with "f."

And they were saying all these words, you know. Some kid would get up and say something and it wouldn't be right. That wouldn't be the word. And I thought of a word: "nerf." And I was going to tell this kid who was right next to me. Because he was sitting alone. The other kids were sitting two and two. He was made partners with the two kids right next to him.

Anyway, they got the word. It was "nerf" and they put it on. That's when I left.

But that knowledge, how much does that knowledge really mean to mean to them? "Nerf." "Fox." "No" "Go." "Dog." "A-B-C-D-E-F-G-H."

Walked into one classroom. It was really a beautiful experience, quite different from the school that I went to. That's probably one of the reasons it was pleasant. And in one of the classrooms they were making tamales. I said, "Now, after you made the tamales, the teacher has to eat it. And the teacher will put a lot of effort into teaching the kids the right way how to make the tamales."

But anyway, I mean, that's just a fine joke or whatever. But it goes on and we learn all this. A-B-C-D-E-F-G-H-I-J-K-L M-N-0 … you know. We just go on like that. "Ah ah, ee ee, uu uu." This is Hindi. And it goes way down the line. And then something in Italian and German and all this. What does it all do to us?

Math. I'm pretty sure there are a few people who just love math. Geniuses. But then I know that there are a lot of people here who just had nightmares with math. I did.

You sit there and you try to add and add and you add and you add, and you just keep adding and finally you just lose track of it, then you have to start all over again. You get it right and you don't get it right. And I mean, after a little while, you don't even care. The book goes to the teacher. Teacher says, "You got that one wrong."

And you just say, "So what?" Not that that's what I said. You just don't even want to look at the teacher. You probably just go into the probability that it is going to be wrong, so that's that. And the algebra and all that. And I know that you have to learn multiplication for years; two twos are four, by heart; every one till twelve.

Now what good is it to me whatsoever? OK, that's true. Spiritual world, it doesn't do a thing. But this is what I'm asking. What good is it to me in a physical world when there are calculators after calculators after calculators. I mean, just look at it. I can give a math genius a calculation to do, which I can also enter into a computer. The computer will bounce that answer just like that. And that genius might take an hour to do it.

Sometimes I wear a watch with a computer and I call Marino. I say, "OK, Marino, how many premies are there and what are the darshan facilities?" And we have a little formula for darshan; 1500 an hour. "How many premies are there?" You ask that question and Marino goes, "Aaah-"; I'm pretty sure he studied mathematics. While he is going, "Aaah-" and everybody is scratching their head, you pop a few numbers into the computer, hit "Equal" and it flashes the answer. And you go, "Oh yeah, it is going to take five point seven-eight-eight-two-two-four hours." Bing.

That's the way this world is. That's the way this life is.

Can you imagine the effort of that man. I don't know if this is really true, but there was supposed to be a Count. And this Count had a slave. And this Count was really into flying. So to test his ideas out, he would take his slave, tie wings on him and have him jump over this cliff. You know, the poor slave would try to do this (waving his arms). The effort that went into that. Or the first helicopter; an umbrella that went up and down. Or the airplane with the pedals and the wings went like that (up and down).

Premies, today you sit in a cockpit, flash on the buttons, watch everything go by, crank your throttle, cross great distances. No mention of the poor slaves who had to jump again and again and again and again.

So after all, this is sometimes maybe our life. It's all there and yet it's not there. It is all happening, and yet it's completely unaccounted for – like my math classes. Completely unaccounted for. If they would have taught me how to use a computer, then maybe I could have even understood the raw machine language of a computer. That would be incredible. (You can just talk to the computer if you'd comprehend it fast enough.)

But then there'll be a day, maybe, when they'll be no computers. You don't need computers, because maybe this whole world is just one working unit. But whatever happens and however it manifests, our life, us … to open up to that, beautiful experience; for us to merge with that Knowledge.

And this is why Guru Maharaj Ji is in this world. This is why Guru Maharaj Ji is here, to make us patch up to that experience, to make us connect with that realization, to make us one with that understanding of who we really are. And not

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Prem Rawat aka Guru Maharaj Ji in 1979 our ideas of who we really are, not our concepts of who we really are, not according to some scripture written a thousand years ago. The guy who's dictating our life doesn't even know what we look like! But practical, within us, for us. That one experience.

And what we have to do is take that ego away. What we have to do is to really open up. Maybe these words are a little bit simpler than "surrender." They mean the same thing. I mean, how can you open up? How can you let go? And yet maybe they're a little bit easier to understand than "Surrender." "Surrender." You know, maybe that's what some people are used to, "Surrender," and your hands go up.

But really, when we open our hearts up, when we look and Guru Maharaj Ji shows — and you can imagine that there were so many people who had the realization of this Knowledge who got down to writing scriptures. And yet all the scriptures in the world do not even come close to the description. What a miracle! What an incredible miracle. What an incredible thing! And for whom? For us. For us at hand to experience.

What does mind do to us? Mind is the slope on the pinball machine. Really. It takes that ball and drives it straight down into the middle hole where the game is over. And our effort is the flippers. And we get into it. Shoot this one, shoot that one. Shoot this one, shoot that one. And sometimes, we can't do anything about it. We shoot the ball up, it hits the middle bumper and comes shooting down into the hole. And that's it.

And these bumpers, other attractions, that we just bump into and bump into and bump into and bump into … (We have a pinball machine at the residence in Denver.)

And what is Guru Maharaj Guru Maharaj Ji is this one little bumper on the side of this machine. And when the ball hits this bumper a light lights up and on top of the light is written, "Gate Opens." And it opens up a gate.

And if you are true, if you can play it good, you can get that ball around that bend and it'll slide. And it won't go down the middle. And you then don't even have to use flippers — nothing. It won't hit any bumpers, it'll just slide down and go to where it started from without ending the game, to give you another whole chance. Completely another chance. The mind, the bumpers, everything, just want to shoot you in. And these two little poor flippers, all the way from where they rest always having the distance in between them so the ball can just come shooting down.

Sometimes you play that pinball machine and the flipper gets stuck. And you bang on it and it comes undone. And sometimes you hit the flipper, and the flipper is in "up" position. The ball comes down and maybe wants to even come up because it has hit something, and the flipper comes back and hits the ball right into the hole.

And what Guru Maharaj Ji gives us is a whole other chance to be. Because look at the elements! What is the pinball machine made for? The most sophisticated part in the pinball machine — as a matter of fact — why is even the whole pinball machine put on a slant?

One day I was cleaning the pinball machine. It was a long time ago when I was here in Denver the last time. And you just take the glass off and you hit everything by hand and it's real fun. You watch your numbers go up. You hold a bumper in, watch thousands of numbers go by.

But that's all fine. If that's the way you played it, you could never lose. But there is a barrier then put in where you cannot touch the ball. And the ball is us: shot around from one thing to the other thing, to the other thing, to the other thing. And our effort is to save that ball from falling in. And there are so many attractions. "Hit that one, and you'll get a bonus."

There is one in there and it's very close to the flippers. And it's a little thing. It's like a little bumper and it goes all the way in and it gives you about 5000 points if you make it go all the way in. But then it makes the ball shoot out and hit directly, directly for that hole in the centre. You got the 5000 points, but that's the end of the game, pretty much.

I mean, for how long can we do that? And Guru Maharaj Ji gives us that chance that we all need in our lives. Only Guru Maharaj Ji can. Not those bumpers. Not those score eaters. Not the thing that sends the ball whizzing into the arena.

And the flippers are not all that effective. They keep the game going for a little while. But there's that one time. And I mean, really, you're playing that game and you really get into it and you've had a few close calls and you just wish somehow you could get that ball and that gate to open and then slide that ball in and that would just give you all the

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A very bad example, terrible example: a pinball machine. But sometimes we are like a pinball machine. This whole life sometimes is like that; the fake life that we try to live in this world.

Every attraction that is put out in front of man. How many watch companies do you think there are in this world? How many clothes manufacturers do you think there are in this world? How many automobile manufacturers do you think there are in this world? They are all out to get — what? Crocodile? Donkeys? Astronauts from other planets? No, sir. You. You. You, is what they want. You are their subject. They interview you. They make you a statistic. You. They make a toothpaste that maybe you will like better. The other guy makes a toothpaste that maybe you will like better than the other guy's toothpaste. You. Now remember that. And it's true! It's really, really true.

So all our things put together, all our odds put together - look, they just really add up. And time is an element. Who's it after? You. Making you wear away. Maybe some people get young at 70 or 80 years old. It's true! They feel a rejuvenating energy and everything. But that even goes away. Time. Day and night. Sun, moon. Everything. Even the world rotating, making the hours happen, day and night happen, aging occur. Natural factors, unnatural factors. That's how many bumpers there are on this pinball machine.

And two little flippers aren't going to do much. Because when those bumpers throw you out, when those bumpers bump you — God! It's a lot of bump. And you head right down for that.

Can you imagine what you would feel like if you were to be placed in an enclosed bucket which was to be driven by hydraulics in a huge arena about the size of this hall, which would be then, by a computer, be hooked up to a pinball machine? And just the way the ball moved is the way you would move. You'd get so sick, so tired. You would want to get out of there so fast. Because it's true! You'd be just all of a sudden to one end of the hall. Then all of a sudden you'd get bumped here and there and here and there and here, and there. And base yourself upon the flippers. Can you imagine that? If you go down the hole, you've had it. I mean, it's outrageous to think. And yet in this world, sometimes that's the way it happens.

And yet, again, for us, there's nothing to be concerned about. It's OK. Because we know. Because we have Guru Maharaj Ji. Because we have that Knowledge. It's OK. Somebody can come in here yelling, "Doomsday is coming in 34 days." That's fine. So what? Really, so what? All you can do is be nice to that guy and say, "Have a nice time till it comes."

And a lot of times maybe I meet some people who don't have Knowledge or sometimes you go into shops. Recently I went to get my driver's licence. The last thing I tell them is, "Have a nice day." Sometimes it gets me thinking. How can they have a nice day? How can they have a nice day? Who's going to have a nice day? They don't even know who they are, so how are they going to have a nice day? Who's going to have a nice day? How are they going to have a nice day? How?

But that nice day can really manifest in our lives forever. It can! I mean, really, this world is really cracking up, believe me. It's really going at it. Really going at it. And it's just that illusion is becoming more and more and more solid; more and more and more a reality. More permanent. No good to nobody. A stupid illusion. A stupid illusion!

And yet we have to have that faith in Guru Maharaj Ji. We have to have that faith, that love, that devotion, that — we have to make that "let go" really real for us. Because Guru Maharaj Ji is there. That Knowledge is there. The gate will open. You, the little ball, will get another whole chance.

So premies, anyway, it's been really nice seeing you again. There's Holi not too far away at all. Some point in this program, I'll let you have the dates when Holi is being celebrated and also, maybe, the Guru Puja dates.

And there's a lot on the way. I know that this is the first U.S. satsang program in 1979. There's a lot more coming. There's a lot more that's going to happen. We just have to make our sincere effort. In '78, I didn't make it for you. In '79, I'm not going to make it for you. You have to do it.

It's nice seeing you, premies. Put in a good night's rest.

Tomorrow is darshan. So see you tomorrow.

Thank you very much, premies.

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